Knowing is Half the Battle
Last week I asked ESPN’s fantasy football analyst Stefania Bell whether I should start Corey Dillon on Antowain Smith at RB. This week, I asked Steve Grogan or Hugh Millen at QB. She seems to be ignoring me. Incidentially, not sure how many people remember this, but Hugh Millen’s nickname was Hugh-Mill-i-ation. That’s a tough one. Next week, it’s Ben Coates or Marv Cook at TE. Incidentally #2, while New England was the last ranked offensive team in Tecmo Super Bown (Tecmo Rankings), Marv Cook tied for fifth among tight ends.
NKOTBSB

Quick thoughts on tonight’s NKOTBSB performance at the American Music Awards:
NKOTBSB performance was choppy but riveting. I was moving my hips like “yeah!” Nodding my head like “YEAH!” (And that makes me larger than life). What happened to “Step 5″ in “Step by Step?” Was it because Jonathan Knight didn’t want to sing (Yes) or because the Backstreet Boys only have four people (Maybe).
That brings me to my next point. The Backstreet Boys obviously need a fifth person to keep this thing even. Who could that be (Me)? Lastly, while NKOTB made me feel like a 12-year old girl again, the Backstreet Boys made me feel like a college student doing data-entry in the Boston University admissions office at my work-study job. They played that song an awful lot back then. That and the one about standing with someone on a mountain and bathing with said person in the sea. It all came full circle as I want to listen to NKOTBSB forever – until the sky falls down on me.
Speaking of NKOTB, their Christmas cassette tape was the first piece of music I ever personally owned. I bought it for 5 bucks off a classmate. I love all the songs on that tape. Here is one of them. Don’t you love this song? Isn’t it beautiful? Just kidding. Seriously, though, isn’t it beautiful? Haha, joking. Beautiful song.
Silence is Golden
When I was in High School, I love, love, loved Oldies music. I liked it so much, I actually taped an infomercial for Dick Clark’s Rock N’ Roll era and watched it over and over. Who tapes an infomercial? Me. I did. I loved seeing the footage and hearing the short clips of the song enough to watch it all . When I wasn’t doing homework or playing sports, I spent my time in my room listening to Oldies 103.3 while playing Bill Walsh College Football on the Sega Genesis. Eventually, I knew everything about both. I even made a list of my 76 favorite oldies for my website, to proudly tell the world which ditties I loved most.
I gradually stopped listening to Oldies and playing old video games. They started making me feel lonely and
disconnected from the present. It’s like what one guy said on the Amazon forum about Sonic’s Ultimate Genesis Collection (40+ old Sega Genesis games repackaged into one disk for the Playstation 3). He made this telling remark about Streets of Rage 2:
The sequel had more of just about everything. More moves. More characters. More varied environments. More music variety. More bosses. The first one also had a sort of wonky hit detection that was never really an issue in the 2nd or 3rd one. I would like to hear your opinion. It’s rare to find someone who cares remotely about these games anymore.
I was thinking of buying this collection of old games, but held off for the same reason I stopped listening to Oldies. I didn’t want to feel lonely and disconnected and invest myself in irrelevancy. So, I read a little about Justin Bieber and keep up with who is getting voted off of “Dancing with the Stars”. Sometimes, I even put on the radio.
The problem is that most things I know and love are in the past. Above my head right now is a prized promotional poster of Mr. T and Hulk Hogan from Wrestlemania I. To my right is a framed photo of Bo Jackson that was huge in 1990. To my left is Rocky with his arms raised after making it up the steps and in the basement is promotional poster for The Karate Kid. It was the first movie that grabbed hold of my heart as a child. For the next 3 months, I did the crane in my Dr. Dentons. Straight ahead is a framed photo of Manny Ramirez from his days with the BoSox. I can’t even let go of athletes who have left town.

Sometimes, though, other people bring up something in the past that is dear to me. This is the best. It means that someone else still cares and thinks about the same things I do. It takes something forgotten and makes it relevant again. It might not be relevant to the world, but it is relevant to someone besides only me. It lets me know that I’m not alone.
This happened recently when my friend Curt posted what happens to be one of my favorite Oldies songs on Facebook. He wrote:
I first heard this song at Roller Village in Fremont, Nebraska, our home town roller skating rink and still can’t hear the song without remembering that association. The harmony is infectious.
I may not have heard this song at the Roller Village in Nebraska, but I can still relate to the associations and memories don’t feel so lonely when they are shared with others. I can’t stop listening to the song he posted. Perhaps it is because it brings me back to a time I never really made peace with. Maybe it is good to spend a little time in that place again to work out things that were never resolved. It’s as if Curt was giving me permission.
Deep Silence
Every now and then when you’re on stage, you can hear the best sound that a player can hear. It is a sound you can’t get in movies or in television. It is the sound of a wonderful, deep silence that means you’ve hit them where they live.
- Shelley Winters
Don’t Go Chasing Waterfalls
I go back and forth on Twitter. I really do. Sometimes, I think it’s great. Other times, I wish it would self-implode. I’m so tired of being advertised to, pithy sayings about success and minor details into the lives of people I don’t even know. Rather than trying to fight it, I joined in with this recent tweet:
Don’t go chasing waterfalls
Please stick to the rivers and the lakes that you’re used to
What does that mean? I have no idea. But, at least I’m doing my part in doling out advice. And, if you don’t like it, remember what happened to Andre Rison’s house. Also, my Twitter friend Wendy wrote back, “There go my plans for tomorrow”. So, people ARE listening.
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With the recent time-change, I’m already feeling depressed. In addition to darkness, here is what we have to look forward to over the next 5 months:
cold, Cold, COLD.
It’s like the time I was driving to a winter time-share place in January. We got stuck in the snow and had to stop at a hotel only 45 minutes into a 4:30 hour trip. We turned on the weather channel and the forecast said this:
Sunday Morning: Snow
Sunday Afternoon: Snow
Sunday Evening: Heavy Snow
So… yeah. It’s always the darkest before it’s totally black. There is a slight remedy for the darkness thing, though. You should pick up some Vitamin D 3. It will really help with the lack of sunlight. Did you know that 68% of all Americans are Vitamin D deficient? It’s true and 45% of all statistics are made up. Vitamin D won’t make you happy, but it may make you less unhappy – and that’s something even if it isn’t much.
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Back in September, I posted this on Facebook:
I’m thinking of buying a PS3. I wouldn’t play it much, but like how black & shiny it is. I also like that it has a Blu-Ray player. I wouldn’t use it, but am intrigued by the idea of owning something so fancy. I also wouldn’t have a TV to use it with, but like the idea of TV. I also hear that NBA Jam is being re-released. I like the idea of being able to jump really high in the air & hear announcers say funny things.
Well, I went ahead with the purchase and have had my very own PS3 for about a month now. So far, it has been really great. I hardly play it all, but love that it just sitting there waiting to be played. I also enjoy reading reviews for games – even games I don’t care about or am even repulsed by – like Johnny-shooter-man-in-the-face games. I’ve done so much research on games I have no interest in purchasing or playing. It’s really great. However, I could purchase and play one of these games I’m not really interested in at any time. I like the idea of being able to buy a game I don’t like and will never play. Somehow, there is comfort in that.
I also have the “Move”, which is Playstation’s new version of the Wii. It has a stick with a ball that lights up. Sometimes, the ball is pink. Other times, the ball is blue. I saw a picture where the ball was yellow. I’m still not sure where the yellow ball comes into play, because I’ve never seen it. Still, I know it’s out there and that right there is pretty exciting.
If you know of any non-Johnny-shooterman games that are really good, please let me know. Just make sure it has a pretty looking cover for me to admire in case I never open it.

Also, Playstation’s motto is: ”It only does everything.” Can we really be sure about this? Let’s take a closer look.
Can it give haircuts?
Can it let you jump 1,000 feet into the air and do dunks you never thought possible?
Can it keep you company on dark, cold and lonely nights?
As Meatloaf sang, two out of three ain’t bad.
A Poem about a Stone
An old rock named stone
Filled with sand to the bone
Skipped along in a creek
All quiet and meek
Carried away to a brand new home.
And though that stone did not shout
He couldn’t help but cry out
To the Maker of mica for feet
The Love of God
There’s a wideness in God’s mercy
I cannot find in my own
And He keeps His fire burning
To melt this heart of stone
Keeps me aching with a yearning
Keeps me glad to have been caught
In the reckless raging fury,
That they call the love of God
News and Notes
After an operation on Friday and not being able to do anything but look at the ceiling, I finally have some time to update this blog with some news and notes.
It was about the fourth time I’ve needed stitches in my life. The first was when I was a little kid and needed stitches on my lip. Afterward, my mom took me to the grocery store and said I could pick out anything I wanted. I chose grape flavored Hubba-Bubba Bubble Gum, which, to my dismay, I quickly realized I would not be able to chew thanks to my stitched up lip. Ouch.
Speaking of being a kid, here is a beautiful tribute to the “Peanuts” cartoon by Randall Goodgame. This song is so delicious, I could eat it for dessert. The part with the violin is really nice and it also has some really touching lines. Like these:
“Sometimes I feel like Charlie Brown, all alone up on the pitcher’s mound, like a-hundred runs down.”
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“If you love, be prepared to lose.”
Speaking of cartoons, I was a big fan of Scooby-Doo. The show was great until Scrappy-Doo came along. What Scrappy missed in height, he made up for in obnoxiousness. However, he had a great spirit about him and could do unexpected things for a little-guy, like jumping great sized fish. That’s what can happen when desperation meets determination. Thank you Scrappy-Doo. Here’s to you, Mr. I-jumped-the-shark-before-there-was-a-shark-to-jump-obnoxious-little-guy.
Speaking of Scooby-Doo, I stumbled upon an Ex Scooby-Doo Villian Support Group on Facebook. Here is how the description reads:
Would you have gotten away with it if it hadn’t been for those meddling kids? Tired of always having your masks ripped off and being exposed for the creepy old man/woman you are? We can help, ESDVSG is here so people like you have a place to come.
Now, THAT (along with Tom Brady is better than Peyton Manning in Football and in Life) is some high quality Facebook group work. Good job people.
Speaking of Tom Brady, the town has been abuzz with news of the departure of Randy Moss. I think the coverage is a bit overblown. After all, Randy Moss never was Tom Brady’s favorite receiver.
Speaking of tough guys, my friend Kyle recently posted this link and asked if people actually paid to see “Over the Top” in the theater back in 1987? Let me give some background before I answer that question.
“Over the Top” was a great name for this movie. Also impressive was how left-hander Sly Stallone was so powerful with his right hand. Finally, this movie had perhaps the most unrealistic scene of all time when the scrawny son wins an arm wrestling match at the end because he tries hard and listens to his father’s advice.
Anyway, to answer my friend’s question, did I actually pay to see this movie in the theater? No. But, I would have. That’s all for now. Back to work on my poem about pickles.

I See Dead People
I am SO tired of people asking if there is anything to do in New Hampshire.

A Penny for your Passion
As you might have noticed, this blog has taken a turn in direction lately. I was tired of what felt like boring and uninspired posts (see my book reviews) and wanted to only post things that I, if a reader, would be interested in viewing. The number #1 quality I boiled that down to was passion. I recall funny blogger man Bryan Allain once saying that he would rather read about a subject he wasn’t interested in that was done from a passionate perspective, than a subject he was interested in from an unpassionate perspective . Or something like that. Actually, maybe it was nothing like that at all. I read the quote about a year ago and really can’t remember. But, I totally agree with what he said. Whatever it was.
Anyway, as an example, this guy is passionate about hating pennies. Am I passionate about hating pennies? Maybe not as much as this guy. But, I am inspired by his inspiration and he has turned me on to the thought of hating them. It’s like a student who eventually writes a book on World War II after developing an interest in history after having a teacher in Middle School who was passionate about history. That is what passion can do, baby!
What else does passion do?
- It cuts to the heart of what matters to someone.
- It matters to someone because it means something to them.
- It touches on deeper things that often end up meaning something to someone else.
- It brings out buried stuff in buried hearts that secretly and, sometimes unknowingly, begs for expression.
- It makes dead things or people come to life.
This guy is passionate about hating pennies. This blog is passionate about passion. What are you passionate about?



