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Sep 17

Somewhere Out There

Posted on Thursday, September 17, 2009 in Quotes

Larry Bird

As a kid, I always thought I was behind and needed that extra hour to catch up.  Jim Jones once told me, “No matter how many shots you take, somewhere there’s a kid out there taking one more.  If you dribble a million times a day, someone is dribbling a million and one.”  Whenever I’d get ready to call it a day, I’d think, “No. Somebody else is still practicing.  Somebody – somewhere – is playing that extra ten or fifteen minutes and he’s going to beat me someday.” I’d practice some more and then I’d think, “Maybe that guy is practicing his free throws now.” So, I’d go to the line and practice my free throws and that would take another hour.  I don’t know if I practiced more than anybody, but I sure practiced enough.  I still wonder if somebody – somewhere – was practicing more than me.

- Larry Bird, Drive

May 7

Celtic Pride

Posted on Thursday, May 7, 2009 in Stories

As we looked for our seats, we walked past a lot of pictures. There were the legends that I had never seen play – one of whom was a man I had just run into in the bathroom. I pointed him out to my Dad.

“It was a pleasure watching you play, Mr. White”, said my Dad.

“Thank you very much”, said Jo-Jo.

He looked refined. He was decked out in a black suit and had an elegance about him. He carried himself with a sense of dignity and class.

I think back to when I mailed away for Celtics stuff as a kid and received a bumper sticker that said, “Celtic Pride”.

“What does that mean?” I asked my Dad.

I can’t exactly remember his answer, but I think he said something about playing with heart and toughness and never quitting. If you take pride in something, you care. You care about your work. You give it all you have. And then, you keep giving.

I saw a picture of Reggie Lewis after he collapsed in the playoffs again Charlotte. The picture was in black and white. Black and white makes things look so old – like it never happened or was before my time. It wasn’t before my time, though. It was my time.

As a 14 year old kid, Reggie was my world. I loved Larry, but only caught the back end of his career. I was too young to remember the height of his glory days. But Reggie was an up and comer. I had seen his career progress. I loved the way he dunked. I liked his number. I loved his Reebok pump shoes.

Across from Reggie was a picture of Kevin McHale and Bill Walton. I remember waiting forever for Walton to return from his injury. When he finally did return, he wasn’t the same. Kevin was the guy with the long arms and great post moves. My Dad told me about how bigger he looked in person. He was 6’10”. I put Kevin in the “things I cannot fathom category” – kind of like the size of Dominique Wilkins shoes.

I remember listening to the games late at night on my walkman. I had dreams about being at the game cheering the team on. If I was there, I could cheer extra loud. If I cheered loud enough, maybe the team would feel inspired and play better. If the team played better, maybe I could play some kind of a role in helping them win.

Reggie Lewis

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I’ve always loved the Celtics. I found a friend in seminary who knew as much about the Celtics as I did. We fondly recalled the days of Marty Conlon and Brett Szabo and I often couldn’t help myself from breaking out into the Walker Wiggle. Pitino was kind of a let down, but there was that year when O’Brien led the squad to the Conference Finals. It was someone else to see them in the playoffs again. I hadn’t seen them playing this hard since going down swinging to Shaq and Penny in 1995.

It was early 2001 and the Miami Heat were off to a dreadful start. We didn’t care. They were in town to play the C’s and my buddy said we could get tickets by calling the players. He said that a friend of his in New York had done so and had been able to watch a Knicks game. The Miami Heat were in town and he started calling some hotels to see if he could track down the players. He tried a bunch of hotels until I told him to call the Ritz. They had to be staying there.

The first guy he got on the phone was LaPhonso Ellis. LaPhonso was also a Christian, and we tried to use that to our advantage. My buddy told him our situation – that we were a couple of broke seminarians who loved basketball and really wanted to see a game.

“You are Christians? Praise the Lord!” said LaPhonso. Still, he had family in town and didn’t have any tickets remaining.

After Chris Gatling didn’t work out and Alonzo Mourning wasn’t available, I reasoned that our best chance was to find a rookie that nobody had ever heard of. After all, these unknown guys don’t get any attention. Nobody – not even hardcore fans – have any clue who they are. As I read through Miami’s roster, one name stood out. It stood out because it didn’t stand out. The guy was a total no-namer. So, we gave Eddie House a call.

House

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There were little things that stood out to me tonight. There was KG clapping for the basketball players with Down Syndrome in the “Heroes Among Us” segment. I’m sure they look up to KG. What they may not realize is that KG was looking up to them.

There was an older lady on the jumbotron who couldn’t have been any more excited or happy to be on there. She must’ve been about 75 years old. Still, she was waving her arms like she was a 12 year-old girl.

I remember my Dad repeatedly saying how great it was to see so many people having so much fun. I think about myself, and times I found myself smiling tonight. I wasn’t just making my lips wider, but smiling. I was really smiling. I can’t remember the last time I smiled with my whole body like that.

I kept texting my buddy who happened to be one section over and about 15 rows down. Every once in awhile he would look back to make eye contact. “Are you seeing this?”, he seemed to be saying. “Yes”, I nod. I am taking it all in.

There is my Dad next to me, getting so excited after each 3-point shot that went in. Just like I can’t remember the last time I really smiled, I can’t remember the last time I saw him so into something. Sometimes the world is full of people desperately in need of some fun.

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I think about the song, “Young Turks” by Rod Stewart. One of the lyrics say “Young hearts be free tonight, time is on your side”. I think often about feeling old and wishing I were younger. Time is not on my side anymore. For me, time is quietly slipping away like air through a tire you didn‘t realize had a hole. Time is fading away for Jo-Jo. Time is fading away for my parents. Time already passed for Reggie Lewis and many of the people whose picture on the wall I couldn‘t even recognize.

As we walked back to our car, I saw something on the side of the road that said, “The Best Neighborhood this Side of Heaven”. I thought this was kind of an outrageous claim. Still, when I think back on the joy and excitement, I wonder if it is that far off.

It’s sort of like when they used to play the “Boom, Boom, Boom” song at Fenway Park. Someone had just hit a home run and the home team was rolling right along. Everyone danced. Strangers gave each other high-fives. You could forget your troubles for a little while. Things were going good and everything was going to be alright. It was a taste of what we were meant for and all know is missing.

And then there was the game itself. You can read about it in the newspaper or watch the highlights on TV. You can see that Rondo had 12 assists in the first half or Eddie’s postseason career-high 31 points. Just know that what you read isn’t the whole picture. Some things can’t be captured in a box score or 30-second highlight clip.

I’m glad that there are things that I still care about. The Celtics are one of those few things.

I can’t really tell you why I care about them so much, just as you can’t always explain why or how you fall in love. All I can tell you is that the pride means something to me. I think it also means something to Eddie House – who went from being a stranger to having his name chanted long after the game ended by fans shuffling down the stairs. Or, Brian Scalabrine who went from being the team mascot to, by playing his heart out, becoming a valued and respected member of the team.

The pride isn’t just about winning over the fans, it’s about believing in yourself when nobody else does. It’s about being able to look at yourself in the mirror when you shave in the morning. It’s also about playing your heart out and, if you must go down, going down swinging.

There is so much more that I could say, but it is late and I am very tired. I leave you with one last thought. The 75 year-old lady having the time of her life on the jumbotron taught me something about age and youth.

Young hearts were free tonight.

Rondo

Oct 20

Saying Goodbye to the 2008 Red Sox

Posted on Monday, October 20, 2008 in Musings


Growing up as a Boston sports fan in the 80’s and 90’s wasn’t exactly easy. There was the whole Bill Buckner thing. Clemens could never seem to win the big game. My favorite player on my favorite team in my favorite sport suddenly collapsed dead in a gym one day of an irregular heartbeat in July of 1993. The Patriots were atrocious. Do people remember how bad they were? I remember how excited I was when they almost beat the Giants in their last game of the season in 1990. Winning this game would have put them at 2-14 for the season rather than 1-15, but the Giants were a good team and even though they were probably sitting half their team, I took this as a huge positive sign for the 1991 season (To my credit, the Pats did go 6-10 in 1991). I did witness a Celtics championship, but I was only 7 years old and was still trying to figure out why Dennis Johnson’s nickname was “DJ”.

I remember thinking that if just one of my teams won a championship I would be satisfied. Like any Cubs fan will tell you, I wasn’t sure if it would happen. Or, maybe it would happen and it would be an experience that my great-great-grandchildren would never forget. Even if it did happen, I wasn’t even sure what the ramifications would be. I started wondering if curses actually did exist and how you would go about breaking them – if indeed you could break them. Mostly, though, I resigned myself to the belief that nothing would go my way and something bad would always happen no matter how much things seemed to be going well and I would always be frustrated and get my heart broken. It was the same for my dating life, so I figured that was just the way things were. My life script was “good things turn bad” and my motto became, “don’t expect anything good to happen because you’ll just get disappointed and it will just hurt more”. I knew that heartache was inevitable, so I just concentrated on ways to manage pain.

They say that a lot of times things happen when you least expect it. Sometimes, just when you think things can’t get any worse, they don’t get any worse. Sometimes, too, they get even better than before they got bad. It’s like when the Celtics got the #5 pick in the lottery last year instead of the number #1. If they hadn’t got the #5 pick they wouldn’t have traded for Ray Allen and if they hadn’t gotten Ray Allen then Kevin Garnett wouldn’t have joined the team and if Kevin Garnett hadn’t joined the team James Posey probably wouldn’t have wanted to play here either. Maybe getting the #1 pick and drafting Greg Oden would have worked out, but he did spend his entire rookie season on the disabled list and I would probably still be using green17 as my password for everything.

Not a whole lot was expected of the Patriots in 2001. When Drew Bledsoe was knocked out of the second game and the Pats started out 0-2, a whole lot less was expected. But the kid Brady had a few surprisingly good games and showed remarkable resiliency and guts and fire and determination and suddenly the Pats started stringing “W’s” together. I think everyone was blindsided with the Patriots success that year. Needless to say, when Vinatieri knocked in that field goal I was elated. Like Jim Valvano, I was at a complete loss for how to even celebrate and was looking around the room at people in disbelief. I was convinced that something bad was going to happen. Something bad always happened. But, that night, only good things happened. They changed the complexion of Boston sports. We weren’t losers anymore. We started believing that anything could happen. We slayed Goliath. We were the champs. I say “we” because they were my team. Whether the record was 1-15 or 18-1, I was with them all the way.

Soon, the Red Sox followed the Patriots success. Eventually, the Patriots became Goliath and other teams were trying to knock them off. Even the Celtics got in on the action after a 20 year layoff (I guess 20 beats 86). At one point last year, the Red Sox were in the world series and the Patriots and Celtics were undefeated. I don’t know how life was a sports fan can get much better than that.

Still, if there is one thing I’ve noticed, it’s that the one championship wasn’t enough. Soon, I wanted more championships and championships on top of championships and championships on top of different teams on top of consecutive championships. The thrill of victory is terrific, but it isn’t lasting. There is an unquenchable thirst for more and I don’t think this is necessarily a bad thing. The championships quench the thirst for winning for a little bit, and then we get thirsty again.

When I was little I used to ask my father who would win if the Patriots played the Celtics. I was always frustrated that he could never give me a straight answer (they do play two different sports after all). It’s almost as if I wanted there to be a winner of winners and champion of champions. A clash for the ages that would result in a final and permanent winner where the thirst for more would be quenched.

I suppose the disciples didn’t think things could get any worse when Jesus was crucified. There was great confusion and sorrow and sadness and frustration. People started questioning meaning and purpose and His whole trip to the earth seemed like one big let down. Good things turned bad. They turned very bad. The hope for mankind came and was treated wrongly and beaten up and tortured and crucified. It was the greatest injustice in the history of history, and all signs pointed to the belief that the mission of Christ had failed.

It’s interesting that the greatest defeat was also the greatest victory. If you take the most final type of loss, you end up with death. If you defeat death, you get the most final type of victory. I was hopeful that the Red Sox would win tonight and advance to the World Series. It breaks my heart that they didn’t. But I know this time around that even if they did win it all I would want the same thing again next year.

I still believe that good things turn bad. The Garden of Eden was good and sin came into the world and made things bad. But Jesus came into the world as well and because of what he did, bad things are turning good again. The loss tonight will sting for some time, but the only contest that really matters has already been settled. He won the greatest victory of all time bringing the greatest satisfaction by enduring the greatest defeat and the final whistle blew when he said it was finished.

He came and He is coming again to bring rest to longing hearts full of desire for what we all know is missing and what we search for even in baseball games and late nights on the couch. When we are reunited, those who follow Him won’t even be close to being let down.

“Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.” – Romans 5:1-5

Jun 18

Return to Glory

Posted on Wednesday, June 18, 2008 in Stories

In the mid 80’s I was just becoming old enough to understand sports and I fell in love with basketball. More specifically, I fell in love with the Boston Celtics. They were just about to win their sixteenth championship and I couldn’t get enough of the oversized foam fingers, caricature cartoon t-shirts and stories of past and present legends. I remember coveting my cousin’s Celtics wastebasket. I got a Celtics calendar for Christmas one year and made drawing of the players and memorized the schedule. I wanted to learn everything I could about my team. I loved each of the players – especially the ones that didn’t get into the game much like Stojko Vrankovic and Charles Smith. I wanted to find out everything I could about them as well.

I am, for better or worse loyal. When I care about something or someone, I really can’t stop caring. I am terrible at moving on because it is against my nature. That is why, when the Celtics were no longer good, I couldn’t stop following them. They were my team and I loved my team. No amount of bad front office decisions or losing seasons could change that.

I remember hearing a story about how a husband cared for his handicapped wife the last 10 or so years of their marriage. She had gotten into an accident and had brain damage. She did not know who he was and was basically a vegetable. Still, he stood by her and took care of her with all his heart. They asked him why he still loved her so much and he responded, “She is my wife and when I promised I would love her in sickness and in health ‘til death do us part, I meant ‘till death do us part’”. Maybe that is why people like the movie The Notebook so much. It is easier to divorce and take the easy way out when the going gets tough. It is much harder to stay true and committed.

Some people look for any reason to party. They hop on the nearest bandwagon and start loud chants. They go from trend to trend latching on to whatever is cool and identifying themselves with the latest and greatest fashion. They have no identity and follow the crowd. They smash windows and throw cars. True fans are a little more grounded. They love the good times but are willing to accept the bad times as well. They don’t turn the game off when their team is being blown out at the end of another losing season because they care. When you really care about something it is really hard to stop caring about that thing. It’s not a light switch that you can flip on and off depending on how well things are faring. True fans never stop hoping, never stop believing and never stop dreaming.

I had a softball game in the north end last night. As I walked past the Boston Garden before game time I saw news trucks and Celtics jerseys and vendors. I thought about how good the team used to be. I thought about Larry Bird lining up 3-pointers and diving for loose balls with his bad back and Robert Parish hitting rainbow jumpers and throwing down tomahawk slams. I thought about Dennis Johnson hitting clutch jumpshots and how long I waited for Bill Walton’s injury to get better. I thought about Dee Browns leaping ability and my favorite point guards Jon Bagley and Sherman Douglas. I thought about Xavier McDaniel and Dominique Wilkins brief stints and when they finally made the playoffs again and almost beat Shaq and Penny in 1995. I thought about the joy that Antoine Walker and his wiggle and misguided thoughts as to how to play the game brought me. I thought about Rick Pitino and how sometimes things don’t always go as planned. I thought about how long it had been since the Celtics were relevant and how you can go your whole life hoping and believing and working for something and wonder if it will ever happen and be overwhelmed with joy when it finally does.

I walked around for a little bit and soaked in the atmosphere. At one point we were the best. Then we fell so far I wasn’t sure the present could ever equal the past. I thought about an event that was about to happen that required years of preparation and would be remembered for years to come. So much history boiled down into one place and one moment. Sometimes you wonder if hard work and effort will ever pay off. Still, sometimes underlying desire and passion win out and provide strength to carry on.

I thought about the deaths of Len Bias and Reggie Lewis. I thought about Kevin McHale, Kevin Garnett and Kevin Gamble. I thought about physical players who weren’t as talented but worked hard like Greg Kite and Kendrick Perkins. I thought about personalities and struggles and goals and battles and devoting your heart to something. I thought about stories and pain and hope. I thought about pride and tradition and victory and defeat. I thought about dreams coming true. I thought about life, love and loyalty. Most of all, though, I thought about heroes.

Oct 9

Keeping your Heart

Posted on Tuesday, October 9, 2007 in Musings, Stories

May 22, 2007. That was the day things would change. It was the day of the NBA draft lottery where the order of the upcoming draft would be determined. As a miserable Celtics fan, I looked forward to this day for so long. They had been atrocious for the last 15 years and now they were going to get a stud. All those years of losing would make it worth it. The Celtics were going to get a top pick and would become relevant again!

They didn’t even need the number 1 pick (Oden). The number 2 pick would have worked just as well (Durant). There was about a 40% chance they would get the first or second pick. The worst they could do was 5th, but there was only a 12% chance of that happening. Things had been bad for so long that surely something good had to happen. I was optimistic. “Pumped and jacked” as old Patriots coach Pete Caroll would say. I took my study partner away from our preparation and headed to the breakroom at my workplace. The pre-lottery show went on forever and I was about to die with anticipation. Finally, things got rolling. The man at the podium started the countdown from 12 to 1. He announced:

14. Clippers
13. New Orleans…
6. Milwaukee
5. Boston

I couldn’t believe it! They only had a 12.4% chance of getting the #5 pick. Just when I thought things couldn’t get any worse, the worst case scenario came true! My buddy tried to console me as we went back to studying, but how can you console someone who endured 15 years of his favorite team sucking and would now have to put up with another decade of rooting for a crappy team (see 1997 lottery/Tim Duncan). Over time, the Celtics had gone from being one of the most storied franchises in NBA history to being a joke. Celtic pride turned into Celtic embarrassment. I was never going to give up on my team, but, at the same time, it wears you out rooting for a team of losers every year. I was a cursed fan living a wretched existence. Things had changed. The Celtics were no longer good. They were bad. Very bad. And that was something I was just going to have to deal with.

Fast forward 4 months and everything has changed. In my mind, there was no hope for team, coach, players, franchise and organization. Danny Ainge somehow managed to pull one brilliant move after another out of his rear end. Kevin Garnett and Ray Allen are bonafide studs and have teamed up with Paul Pierce in the quest for Green17. The games have sold out and the Celtics are all over the news! Wow!

The Bible mentions a woman who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years. According to Mark, “she had suffered a great deal under the care of many doctors and had spent all she had, yet instead of getting better she grew worse” (Mark 5:26). I’m sure that after 12 years of suffering, she was ready to throw in the towel and give up. It’s easy to have faith for brief periods of time, but to suffer like that for 12 years… However, she saw Jesus and thought, “If I just touch his clothes, I will be healed”. The Bible notes that “Suddenly” her bleeding stopped and she was freed from her suffering. After 12 years, it all ended. All at once. Just like that.

Now, obviously my plight as a Celtics fan can’t compare with the suffering this woman had to endure. If the Celtics never won another game again, I still could live a very happy life. The point is, though, that there is hope for the future because in a moment everything can change. I’m sure that this woman felt her suffering would never end. In an instant though, it was gone. In the meantime, God carries us along and uses the pain and tears for His glory.

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.2 Corinthians 4:16-18

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